Happy Easter

First time I have been upstate in years for Easter. It was a great day. I needed it. I went to my uncles and met his girlfriends family and friends and that was great. Then back to check on aunt Joyce and grandma and my doggies. Then my brother and his fiancé hosted Easter dinner to give my mom a break and their house looks great and Rachel is a modern day Betty Crocker. I thoroughly needed it. My sis and step dad and mom were there so it was a day with a lot of love. And that made my day. Now I am with my doggies and grandma enjoying my evening. Sometimes taking time from my serious side work and shoots and networking is needed or you get burned out.
I miss my dad alt but I am appreciating everything more bc of the loss It brought so many emotions And reality I might never really understood. I miss you dad!

Being silly

Curlers and kerchief in my hair ha ha

My dad and he was a worker bee

I was going they my dads paper work to sort through his things today get his affairs altogether after his passing. It brought sun emotion up. He worked and worked his whole life and he looked out for me with a home and life policy. And he's not here to see things hay I will do to make him proud. It hurts so muh and it feels so warming to my heart that he loved me so muh that he secured everything for my future. I am so grateful and just in awwh my dad loved me so much and I love him so much for all it of it
Gos bless you daddy!

The secret power

Read it last week. And it was wonderful book. I am onto the last secret series the secret magic. Very very good. And makes you realize how thankful to be to the u I star. Especially right now going thru the loss of my father I appreciate everyone and everything in my life.

Daddy's memorial today

Last Monday march 18, 2013 my father passed away. I knew I loved my dad. I spent time w him laughed with him, talked to him almost everyday. Sometimes I would think my goodness he calls alot and worries over silly things when he hasn't heard from me. He one he was sick. But we both thought he had time. I would of stayed the night enjoyed more time more memories. I know I shouldn't punish myself I just hurt so much. There is no more time. There are no more memories what I have is all I will ever have from this point on. It hurts so much and it sucks!

Née book. À path w Heart

À guide through the perils and promises I spiritual life. By jack kornfield.

New book started tonight

"A path with a heart" by jack kornfield a guide through the perils and promises o spiritual life. So far so good.
A nt at this junction in my life w questions of what I want in my future. Making sure I stray true to myself in spirit. Being open to ways I am may have misunderstood or just snubbed off. And I guess all this is coming to a fruition bc or my dad being terminanly ill . Not only to tey make sure he's cared for and as happy as he can be but I start thinking about all I want to bc we are given this life and it should be about working and soaking in Thia beaituful planet and all it has for it's. my mind is becoming very clear laty!