Daddy's memorial today

Last Monday march 18, 2013 my father passed away. I knew I loved my dad. I spent time w him laughed with him, talked to him almost everyday. Sometimes I would think my goodness he calls alot and worries over silly things when he hasn't heard from me. He one he was sick. But we both thought he had time. I would of stayed the night enjoyed more time more memories. I know I shouldn't punish myself I just hurt so much. There is no more time. There are no more memories what I have is all I will ever have from this point on. It hurts so much and it sucks!